embarrassing yourself is actually so evil

like why did i suddenly turn into a completely different person. who is that girl and why is she talking so much. why is she telling strangers personal stories like they asked.

and it always creeps up on you too. you’re fine at first. normal. and then at some point you cross an invisible line and now you’re either:

• oversharing with someone you just met

• texting people you should not be texting

• or in a bathroom having a full emotional moment with a random girl

and in the moment it feels so serious. like everything you’re saying makes sense. like yes this is important. this needed to be said right now.

then you wake up and it’s just dread. like immediate dread. you check your phone slowly because you already know it’s bad. messages you don’t remember. maybe a video. maybe you apologized to someone for something you can’t even recall.

but realistically everyone else was just as messy. nobody was standing there taking notes on your behavior. they were doing their own weird stuff.

and after a few days it’s not even that deep anymore. it just becomes one of those stories you laugh at later.

just drink water. don’t open your messages right away. and maybe hide your phone from yourself next time.

you’ll be fine.