i ghosted him and slept perfectly fine

like i didn’t even do the thing where you stare at your phone after. i literally just stopped replying, put my phone down, and went to bed. no second thoughts, no “wait was that mean,” nothing. just sleep.

and i feel like that says everything because if i actually care, i can’t do that. i’ll be thinking about it, rereading messages, debating what to say. but with him it was just… quiet. like my brain didn’t even try to make it deeper than it was.

and it’s not like he was doing anything worth a goodbye speech either. no effort, inconsistent, just there enough to be annoying. like i’m not about to sit down and explain why that doesn’t work for me. be serious.

so yeah i disappeared. and i didn’t feel bad because what exactly did i leave behind.

honestly if i can ghost you and immediately go to sleep, you were already on your way out. i just helped.